that your soul was the pillar of my soul

that your heart was the reason my heart always dug deeper

that your name was the answer to all the faces of the world

that your body was a free fall my body never recovered from

that I gave you
what was left of me and everything
there is to give

that I am...
nothing but the breath of life inside the lungs
of a finished woman.

...these are the things I’ll never tell you.